Beware the Ides of March: my computer will die in the middle of writing this

Beware the Ides of March because surprise, it's not morning as I write this, again. My computer is at four percent charge. I don't have a coffee or a tea, I have a coke energy drink; this is an all-time low. I am joking. I could be drinking a Monster. But Coke? Someone needs to make sure I have my head screwed on right.

Beware the Ides of March because I woke up very late today. I stayed up all night attending to a mess and attempting to write a book with terrible case of writer's block. I needed to at least to try to do something I enjoyed but I actually have more than just writers block right now, I feel like I have life block. Does that make sense? It's no matter that I was late though, I have gotten really good at getting ready for work and school in less than 20 minutes. I would have liked to curl my hair today and even though I planned to last night, my hair is unkept and very straight as I am writing this.

Beware the Ides of March because I accidentally ate a moldy piece of bread last night and my stomach is punishing me right now.

Beware the Ides of March because I find myself outside of a class, studying and listening to the lecture in one ear and punk rock circa 2004 in the other. This is the closest to panic I have been in while. And by a while, I mean at least 9 hours. I have a test in a few days just like I had one last night. I also have several projects due this week. This is a slow week. Really.

Beware the Ides of March because it’s a Monday. Yikes.

Beware the Ides of March because I have put myself and my relaxation to the side for this entire semester. It is all day, even while I eat, I don't get to rest and to just focus on rest. If I am lucky I watch tv to keep me awake or sane. Or both. If I am not lucky, I use that time to study or clean. And when I am done fueling myself, then it's back to the constant move of life. I just realized I need to make a grocery list and go to the store today. I guess I will sleep when I am dead, or when my body forces me to.

Beware the Ides of March, because every one of your stresses will come to a head and the temptation to ignore it and have fun on the Wednesday St. Patricks day will become irresistible. Wednesdays are my busiest days and I have a test that day. It is one of my favorite holidays though, I love the color green. That's the only reason really. But with my luck, I’ll forget to wear green and I’ll get pinched.

See I feel like I shouldn't beware the Ides of March because this has been a very regular day but this day has been a good reminder. I am reminded that this sucks, but I can make little decisions to get me through it. So I think I can celebrate St. Patty’s day a little, after my test that is. And today I can sit in the back of the lecture so I don't have to be completely plugged in. I can even listen to the lecture material outside to soak up some vitamins. I can buy a coffee before work even though I know I will have coffee there, because it is okay to be nice to myself. I can listen to music at work when I am doing mundane scanning or creating social media posts that will probably not get posted for a few months. I can watch tv and eat at the same time so I don't feel alone. I can walk the long way home to get a little extra physical activity in and make me feel good. I can do what is a fair of chores and be easy on and forgiving of myself. I can use the rest of my computer battery to write a blog post to keep me from going insa